Gods Plans!

So, today I am felling a little down. Sometimes dont you just wish that you knew what Gods plans were? Today I am wondering just that. I know that he picked Olivia just for us and made us wait for her. I know that he picked Danica just for us and made us wait for her, then gave her to us when we didnt even know it. But what are his other plans? I watch the people around me live their lives as God had intended it to be, and I think, what about me? I feel so grateful for the loving husband that I have, and the two beautiful miracle girls that I have, and yet I wonder if this is what my road is. Is this it? I feel like I have been trying and reaching for things that I am now unsure if they are to be mine. I feel like I have been putting my life on hold for this one little thing. Today, I think that it has just hit me like a ton of bricks. I think that this is exactly what God had intended for me. This is the road that I am to travel with my husband and two little girls. If God had other plans for me then, he wouldnt make it so hard for me. Today I have decided that I need to start living my life and not putting it on hold for one silly little thing. I have everything that I have ever wanted and more. I need to start being more grateful for the things that God has given me instead of wishing for the things that are not meant to be mine. Today I start a new and happier me. I know that my life is complete now and I will start enjoying every minute of it. I am lucky to have people in my life that understand me and have the patience to help me through my hard times. Thank you so much for still being my friends. I promise that today is my change day, and I will be a better person, for you, for my family and for me.