Turning 30, and 9 years of marriage!

So, a couple of weeks ago i turned 30! It has been kind of a hard transition for me. When my dad called to wish me happy birthday, he told me that a 3rd of my life was now over. How sad! I dont feel that way, but i still remember when I thought that 30 was old. I even thing that my grey hairs have multiplied. I am very excited for the next faze of my life. Pat and i recently found out that we wont be having anymore kids. It was very hard to hear, but at least there wont be that disappointment every month. I feel like now we are on to a new chapter of raising our kids and truly starting our life together. I couldnt ask for a more wonderful man to share the rest of my life with. We have been together for 15 years and married 9 of them. We have been through alot and it has all only made us stronger. I am looking forward to spening the next 30 years with my husband and 2 dbeautiful children. I am now excited to be thirty. I finally think that I am an adult! Yay!

Santa Claus?

Let me tell you about our trip to see Santa Claus. We have never taken the girls to see him before. We have a friend that always dresses as one at a Christmas party, but other than that, Olivia has never really seen him. I saw that Santa at the mall and thought that he looked pretty good. So after our Christmas pictures on our way out Pat and I decided to let the girls see him and pay the crazy amout of money to get their picture taken with him. First, we walk up and notice that the Santa has a lazy eye, if you look close you can see that his eyes both go different directions. Next, Olivia is just at thr start of the red carpet and just starts crying and grabbing at me. Then I sit her on his lap and she calms down but she wont look at him and will not smile. Next is Danicas turn. She is quit at first then we put her on his lap and she just curls into this ball and just starts screaming bloody murder. Her face is so red and white she is scrunching it so had. Pat and I of course are just laghing our asses off. The lady takes the pictures and asks if we want to see it, and I tell her no because it doesnt matter and it is not going to get better. We take the girls off of hus lap and amazingly enough, they are both better. Carzy! So, we wait to get in the car before we look at the picture, and OMG we both bust up laghing harder than I think we ever have before. It is the perfect first picture of the girls with Santa!

Family Pictures!

It is finally time for family pictures. It is always such an ordeal. We get the girls there and they look cute, the the lady has to take a phone call that takes 10 minutes. By the time she gets back Danica has torn her head band out and Olivia is trying to strangle Danica. You would think that it would get easier as they get older but it doesnt. But we did get some great pictures!

Sisters!

These pictures were taken a while ago, and finally made it to the blog. My girls are so cute together. Their new thing is that they always have to hold each others hand. Even when we just get out of the car, Danica walks over and waits for Olivia to get out of the car to hold her hand. Danica is such a good little sister. It is like she already knows that her big sister needs her help and she is there for her. She is always looking out for Olivia. She brings Olivia her sippy when she cant get up to get it, she shares her food with her, and after we drop Olivia off at school, Danica runs around the house yelling sissy, sissy. I could not have been blessed with two cuter kids!

Fun in the tub!

Last night was bath time in the Spencer household. It is the girls favorite time. When I give them a bath it is always just in and out, but when dad gives thema bath, it is every wall, everybody get wet kind of thing. They have such a good time, and they both love to fight over who gets to hold the shower head!

St. George

A couple of weeks ago the girls and I went to Grandma and Grandpas house in St George and had such a blast. We went to the park and they had the coolest play ground. Danica didnt even want to wait for help to go up and down the slide, she just did it all on her own. Olivia was a little unsure at first, but then she decided that she loved it. The was a couple of times that the girls were fighting to get up the steps first and Danica cheated by pulling on sisters shirt to get ahead of her. They are so cute. The park also had a little man made creek. The water was a little chilly but it was 75 degrees outside so they didnt notice. We tried to roll up their pants so that they wouldnt get all wet and as you can see, the was pointless, they both got drenched. It was well worth it, they had much fun, and I think that grandma and grandpa had as much fun as they did. After the creek, we stripped the girls down to nothing to dry out and had some lunch. Right now Olivia is all about her nipples, she just cant get enough of them. Danica is all about the peepee. She tried to feed it a cheeto and totally grossed my dad out. But she thinks that whatever she likes, her peepee will like. Hopefully these are both just a faze.

Gods Plans!

So, today I am felling a little down. Sometimes dont you just wish that you knew what Gods plans were? Today I am wondering just that. I know that he picked Olivia just for us and made us wait for her. I know that he picked Danica just for us and made us wait for her, then gave her to us when we didnt even know it. But what are his other plans? I watch the people around me live their lives as God had intended it to be, and I think, what about me? I feel so grateful for the loving husband that I have, and the two beautiful miracle girls that I have, and yet I wonder if this is what my road is. Is this it? I feel like I have been trying and reaching for things that I am now unsure if they are to be mine. I feel like I have been putting my life on hold for this one little thing. Today, I think that it has just hit me like a ton of bricks. I think that this is exactly what God had intended for me. This is the road that I am to travel with my husband and two little girls. If God had other plans for me then, he wouldnt make it so hard for me. Today I have decided that I need to start living my life and not putting it on hold for one silly little thing. I have everything that I have ever wanted and more. I need to start being more grateful for the things that God has given me instead of wishing for the things that are not meant to be mine. Today I start a new and happier me. I know that my life is complete now and I will start enjoying every minute of it. I am lucky to have people in my life that understand me and have the patience to help me through my hard times. Thank you so much for still being my friends. I promise that today is my change day, and I will be a better person, for you, for my family and for me.